I’ve been using Tumblr since probably around 2010.
I’m not quite sure how I found it, but I was so entertained by the memes and the fact that you could quite literally find anything on Tumblr. It was a user-friendly Reddit or 4chan, I really didn’t need to go to anywhere else on the internet. News, movies, music, jokes–hell, there’s basically even porn on Tumblr (that has unfortunately, and accidentally popped up on my dash). Why did I need another website?
I created my internet persona in 2010, I believe–might have been earlier than that. There really wasn’t a profound reason for The Whitest Girl U’Know (note the obvious familiarity to The Whitest Kids U’Know). I went to a local college where, I guess, I said a lot of “white” things–it was a lot more diverse than my high school with probably 10 non-white kids in my grade. So a few of my friends would laugh and say, “you’re so white” and eventually “you’re the whitest girl I know.”
I’m just really bad at making blog titles. Why can’t I just be Kelly? Kelly’s not witty, I thought. Kelly is just… a person. I needed something more interesting. No one’s going to go online and say, “I’m going to look for that girl Kelly’s blog.”
So after much thinking and unoriginality, I came up with “The Whitest Girl U’Know” and later changed it from U’ to You.
What a big step.
I did spend $20 on a GoDaddy domain though. God, is that stuff confusing.
So I’d write occasionally about whatever I thought people thought was funny. Note how I said how I wrote for other people.
I’d sit in my bed and wrack my brain and go, “What do people think is funny?” and I finally realized that the majority of people, I found, like cynical, snarky, negative things presented in a somewhat witty manner.
Not many people want to read, “10 reasons why I’m happy today”…most people laugh at other people’s expenses. Or like to say, “hey, that stuff annoys me too!” I’m not trying to generalize here, there are plenty of positive people that like reading positive things, but look at websites like Cracked, CollegeHumor, The Oatmeal, or even Thought Catalog–how much happy-go-lucky stuff is on there?
So I probably wrote on the site for a little over a year–it’s been a year this past December. I became increasingly tired of it and unmotivated and ran out of ideas. I felt like my life was a little deeper than “10 Things I Hate About —-” like, that’s fine once and a while, but after a bit I was like, “Who cares? Why do I care? Why am I writing this?”
I wanted to write about school, I wanted to write about people, I wanted to write about happy times and hard times and that just didn’t fit into the TWGUK/TWGYK/w/e persona. I felt like I was torn between this Tumblr person and myself. I felt this divide–I literally had at one point (and still have most of these things) a personal Tumblr, my TWGUK tumblr, a personal Twitter, TWGUK twitter, personal FB, TWGUK fan page, personal email, school email, TWGUK email…. it was too much! It is too much.
I mean, I’m not trying to say it wasn’t nice. I came to my new school and people seemed to like it. There was even “Kelly Face Day” where I was made into a meme to promote my blog. I had some fans. I had a good amount of Tumblr followers…but I wasn’t really into it. I had to force myself to write things and say “I’m going to write a post every other day so I can get an Evvy” (which is complete bull, by the way).
Spoiler alert: I didn’t get an Evvy. I submitted to the Best Blog (or whatever) category and I didn’t even get nominated. The Fashion Society blog won, because, you know, my school’s all about that stuff.
I’ve ignored it for a few months, and I’m in Los Angeles now at an internship. I’m getting tired of Thought Catalog and I’m getting tired of the same old recycled internet blog humor. I feel like individual people are much more interesting than they make themselves out to be.
So from now on, I’m going to be me. Myself. Kelly. And if that’s not interesting to people, then at least I can say I was genuine.